It was raining last nite…there were strong winds that could blow a tree from the ground that its rooted too…I love that kind of weather. What I would do is to make a hot cup of coco, put a blanket around me and sit in front of my computer and start to write a story but I didn’t have the mood last night. Don’t really know why. And I had another bad dream. I dreamt that I was sitting in front of the fire place and it was pouring outside. A warm touch hugged me from the back. It was a guy I couldn’t see the face it was blurred out but the touch was all to familiar to me. We just sat in front of the fire enjoying each others company and talking about our lives. That was when I noticed that there was something in the fire. I thought it was my imagination playing around in my head. But that thing became bigger and bigger. It took the shape of a half human, half beast. It was the same creatures from the other dreams I had. I saw it coming out from the fire and all the while the guy that was hugging me didn’t see a thing. He just sat there all calm and cool. He asked me what was wrong. I told him what I was seeing. I told him to run but it was too late. The creature grabbed him by the neck and lifted him 2 feet from the ground. I tired to hit the creature with a pieces of wood that were on the side of the fire place but each time I hit it the wood broke into pieces. I graded its arm but it just flicked me like a fly. I was thrown onto the wall. As sudden as everything it stopped. The guy dropped to the ground lifeless. I went closer to see if he was alive. And to my shock it was someone I love the most…Mike…I really don’t know why I have these kinds of nightmares where people I love get hurt and there’s nothing I can do about it. I know, I think I’m weird too. Sometimes I do think I’m a freak…I just hope no more nightmares tonight…cause I’ve got a bad headache due to the lack of sleep. Today was like any normal day boring, boring and even more boring…I thought I could get some sleep but no…..i had to look after my nephews and niece. I just hope I get enough sleep tonight…because my body cant take it.

Last but not least pray that I get into second year with my classmates…I don’t want to go to another class and have to make news friends again. That would mean I have to start back at square on. I’ve got so use to having my classmates and I know which I can work with and which I can’t. If I end up with a whole bunch of new classmates then I would have to pick out the people who can work and those who can’t. And that took me a year. And plus my classmates are united. I’ve not seen a class like mine. I love my class we help each other when in need and that’s what classmates are for. Trust me in poly you’re classmates play a very important role in your poly life. I just pray that I don’t have to change classes……

tiramisu ice cream.....

so not much of a 21th birthday.....just wish mike was here...

well nothing much happened today...i was at home the whole day so freaking bored...no one at home plus no one to go out with...was suppose to help my uncle with a show but he never called...i guess his madam gave him hell last nite again...anyway...looks like mike is having fun...well not really fun, fun...fun...u get what i mean rite. he went to play paintball yesterday...it was a good change from him two or three days ago...he had a emotional break down and trust me i didnt help at all...thank goodness Faiz was around...he he he...was getting worried about mike for awhile...but looks like thngs are changing which is good. Thou, i know he misses hs family and friends at least he has found a way not to thinka about it too much...

oh and had a lil misunderstanding with mike last nite. i was kinda shocked and i taken back. if i was an animated cartoon, you would have seen the decrease in size and hiding at a corner. when he told me what he did when his fren made a comment similiar to wat i said i was scared. i know he wouldn't hurt me but i jus get scared when someone just gets that angry...i guess maybe i've lived in fear most of my childhood days it kinda affected my life now...thanks to my so called dad...i don know ever since he started to live with us...i get scared easily and the memories of the past keeps flashing in my head and in my dreams...and i've got no idea why...i've not told anyone about it thou...i thinking maybe its just me...and maybe after a few days everything would be back to normal again...

oh on top of all that i've got to seat for my math paper again...eerr...i didnt pass the first time...i hate math...pray tat i'll pass this one....

1st try

2nd attempt
1st Attempt
3 rd Attempt

haha had a go at picture editing again...cause i was so bored...which is nicer u pick and have a comment....