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Wednesday, October 31, 2007

sleepy day
School was pretty slow today. I wore my new soccer jersey today, with my name on it. So for those for you who calls me “a” please look at the back of my shirt and call me by that name, thank you. But I wasn’t the color I wanted. I asked for black and they gave me orange. ARE YOU PEOPLE COLOR BLIND? OR YOU CAN’T READ? Anyway I realized today in class that I really need to start to read aloud. I was asked to read a few lines from my book and I suddenly felt like a cat caught my tongue. Yes I found it hard to read. By the time school ended I was so tired and sleepy. I fell asleep during my lecture and on the bus. I fell asleep again when I got home. I’m still tired now. And I was planning to do my research. Oh hell, I can do it tomorrow. I’m gonna take a nap now. Good night and HAPPY HALLOWEEN! May you have the fright of your life tonight….WAHAHAHAHA…………………………….

~ { 9:05 PM }
reflections of you and me;


Sunday, October 28, 2007

TIRED!!!!!
Kinda tired today. Went out visiting my friends thou it was only 2 houses but they journey took up most of the time. Please remind me not to take a bus from marine parade to yishun. My ass hurts from all that sitting down. But it was nice to see my old friends again and just spending time with Siti and Mike. Tomorrow I’ve got a long day and in school. I’ve got to wake up early and this time I better make sure I’m in the right class. Otherwise I would really have to wear a paper bag over my head. Anyway its getting late and I have to wake up early tomorrow. I know it’s strange that it’s only 9:30pm and I’m going to sleep. Well, I’ve got school so good night be people.

P.S: Pics of today will be posted tomorrow nite...

~ { 9:30 PM }
reflections of you and me;


TIRED!!!!!
Kinda tired today. Went out visiting my friends thou it was only 2 houses but they journey took up most of the time. Please remind me not to take a bus from marine parade to yishun. My ass hurts from all that sitting down. But it was nice to see my old friends again and just spending time with Siti and Mike. Tomorrow I’ve got a long day and in school. I’ve got to wake up early and this time I better make sure I’m in the right class. Otherwise I would really have to wear a paper bag over my head. Anyway its getting late and I have to wake up early tomorrow. I know it’s strange that it’s only 9:30pm and I’m going to sleep. Well, I’ve got school so good night be people.

~ { 6:26 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Friday, October 26, 2007

Is this depression...?
Somehow the past few days, time flew so fast. It’s like one minute I’m in school and the next I’m on the way home. And I’ve been more moody then before. Don’t know why. At times I would be very angry. And I would be angry at the wrong people. And when I’m emo I just jump to conclusions. Someone very dear to me had been hurt a lot the past 2 months by none other then yours truly. Too hurt that even sorry wouldn’t heal the wound. I just don’t know what’s wrong with me. He has been so sweet and I’ve been nothing but a pain in the ass. I’ve acted the same way towards my classmate. Is this what they call depression? If it is…it sucks. It sucks big time. And plus it makes it even worse when you see that you behave differently and when you look into the mirror, you know that’s not you. And all that would make you frustrated with yourself.

~ { 1:30 PM }
reflections of you and me;


Wednesday, October 24, 2007

3rd day of school.....feeling damn sleepy
School ended fast today. Got a really cool teacher she’s fun. She’s very bubbly and always smiling and making her subject fun even thou its like damn boring. And plus some ass hole hacked into my friendster account and changed my profile. Hello don’t you people have anything better to do. Well, it does really matter anyway since I’m not using it that often. I prefer to blog. It’s been a very tiring week. I guess I just need to get into the swing of school and having to wake up early. So far my classmates are ok. Since my class was split there’s only like 5 of us in the same class so we planned to just stick together. Plus I managed to get into UNDERSTANDING THEATER!! I start lessons soon…woohoo can’t wait.

And in other news Mr.Azmi who is a friend of mine is getting his play acted by YCP congrates to him. I’m so jealous. I’m still in the stage of convincing people. Feel kinda down about it. I mean there is nothing so hard about funding for a small play. And plus it’s not like the CC money would be all used up. I followed my uncle to a meeting today among gressroots and I found out that PA (people’s association) are actually willing to give $5000 for all racial groups under the CC and if that if not enough and PA feelings that the event is really good they are willing to come up with more cash (but nothing more then $10k) which like more then enough for me. More then enough for my play. But of course the event has to fit some criteria. When I took at the criteria my play fits them all. But I guess the question is why the hell do I have to convince a bunch of idiots who think that a play about family bounding is a waste of money and time. EEERRR! I just hate people who just cant except what they don’t understand and refuse to open to new things that can benefit them and the community. But I will not give up. Once there’s a will there’s a way. I will get my play acted out sooner or later…just watch.

~ { 10:30 PM }
reflections of you and me;


Monday, October 22, 2007

TIRED!!!!!
Damn tired now…plus the weather is not making it any easier for me to stay awake. Its been raining for the past few days…I just feel like sleeping. I was late for my first day of school…and due to being worried that I would be marked absent I just rushed into class after sitting in the class for like 20 minutes I realized I was in the wrong class. Lucky for me I was not the only one who made that mistake. It was kind of a slow day today. Oh and I managed to appeal to get my extra module changed. I just really hope that I get understanding theater. There’s a reason behind why I insist on theater. Well…right now I’m on the stage of getting my own script played out on stage. I just need to convince some people to help me out. I actually planned for it to be preformed on March 20th but due to me being in school and having to convince these people again. Production has been pushed back. So now it will be preformed in June during the school holidays. I just need to work on the budget, the songs and the props. Lightings and sound will be proved by my ‘uncle/boss’. He has agreed to help me out. I can’t wait to get started. And it would be a bonus for me if I get into understanding theater. At least I would get a better understand about theater and therefore improving my play…well…its late plus due to being caught in the rain I might be coming down with the flu and ½ of my class is down with the flu….well….good night people.

~ { 8:00 PM }
reflections of you and me;


Sunday, October 21, 2007

first to Bata then to school....he he he
Wow…time flies. Just about a month back I was having my holidays and now school has started…I’ve got like about another 1 and half years left then I’m out into the working world. Found out that my class has split so I don’t really know who is in my class and who isn’t. well…no harm in making new friends. Is not like I had much to begin with anyway. And plus Mike has started his photography classes. I wonder if he could teach me a thing or two…he he he. I’ve also planned to take my driving license soon but I got to get use to going back to school and waking up early. Mondays would be a killer. I start at 8 and it’s a lab so I cant be late. And I might be changing one of my subjects. I got understanding art which was like my 3rd choice. I chose understanding theater. I just hope I get it cause I was never good with art. I don’t have an artist side so yeah. Even if I do end up taking art I might have to get help from my twin maybe cause she’s better at it.

Well...cant write much tonight cause I’ve got school. and YES no more JAVA. I think…*scratches head* I cant live with another java lesson…well good nite people.

~ { 8:30 PM }
reflections of you and me;


Tuesday, October 16, 2007

i admit my english is not that good
I hate it when people use the “WTF” on me. Someone asked me to read a cool story that he wrote and believe this good. Even I can’t write like him. But just because I thought that a sentence that he used a little singlish to me. He thought it was an insult. Fine! I admit I’m not as good as you in English but you didn’t have to say “WTF” for those who don’t know what “WTF” means go find out…I’m stud and hurt…i really don’t know what to say…all I can say is I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it as an insult. It was just an honest feedback. I didn’t meant to insult your English…and i know my english will never be as good as yours...

~ { 9:19 PM }
reflections of you and me;


i admit my english is not that good
I hate it when people use the “WTF” on me. Someone asked me to read a cool story that he wrote and believe this good. Even I can’t write like him. But just because I thought that a sentence that he used a little singlish to me. He thought it was an insult. Fine! I admit I’m not as good as you in English but you didn’t have to say “WTF” for those who don’t know what “WTF” means go find out…I’m stud and hurt…i really don’t know what to say…all I can say is I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it as an insult. It was just an honest feedback. I didn’t meant to insult your English…and i know my english will never be as good as yours...

~ { 9:19 PM }
reflections of you and me;


Sunday, October 14, 2007

2nd day of Hari Raya
It’s the second day of Hari Raya and boy…am I tired. Been visiting a lot of people for the past two days. But somehow the mood of Hari Raya and decreased for me. I’m not as excited as I was before. Especially this year, for this is the year where I found out that you can’t rely on your best friends to help you in times of need. Sometime you can’t rely anyone but yourself. And I’ve also learnt to choose my friends wisely plus being alone and not having much friends is, isn’t that lonely. Trust me it would be better. Having your relatives would be good enough. For me, my best friend was always been my journal. My blog isn’t really my journal. I have one that I’ve kept for 3 years or so. That journal can only be read when I die. Anyway school is starting soon. CAN’T WAIT. Been bored to death at home with nothing to do. I started photo editing again. But I found out that I’m getting worse at it somehow. I guess what someone of my classmates and my sister said was true. I’m a jack of all trades but a master of none. Or maybe I just need more time to play around with photo editing.

Well…its late and I better get to sleep before my mom and I fight over marriage again. She just wants me to get married fast but I don’t. Marriage is not a play thing. You’re gonna be spending the rest of your life with some stranger. Ok so maybe not ‘some’ stranger but still. You’ve never lived with that person, you wouldn’t know their true colours till you’re married to them. Please I’m not will to be married to a man who only thinks of himself or who cant take care of the family. If…god forbid…I get married to someone like that I’d rather live alone but by then I better have a good cert so that I don’t have to cling on to him for support or what so ever. I just want to finish my studies get a stable job, enjoy myself traveling or fulfilling my dreams then I’ll settle down. I guess that would make me 25 or 26 by the time I’m ready for marriage.

~ { 7:27 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Tuesday, October 9, 2007

no mood to blog
Am i alone?
by Megan Hance

I get a funny feeling,
it comes from deep inside.
I get all mad and angry,
wanting to go and hide.

My doctor calls it depression,
my dad says it's just me.
But the thoughts and feelings,
no one will ever be able to see.

Some say I'm psycho,
some say I'm just weird.
It's like I'm a different person,
and the old me just disappeared.

I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.

I wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day.

Life is a Prison
by Puff

Life is a prison,
Oh God let me out.
No one to listen,
To hear when you shout.

Climb the walls of insanity,
Ride the waves of despair.
If you fall it don't matter,
There's no one to care.

Used to wish for a window,
To see birds, trees and sky,
But you're better without one -
Stops you aiming too high.

Watching freedom is painful,
For those locked away.
Seeing joy, love and happiness,
Another price that you pay.

Strong is good, weak is bad.
Be it false, be it true.
Your mind makes the choice,
And enforces it too.

Cell walls built by society,
With rules to adhere.
If you breach the acceptable,
You had better beware.

Hide the pain, carry on,
Routine is the key.
Don't let on that you're not,
What you're pretending to be.

Lock it all up inside you,
How badly that bodes.
Look out for that one day,
When it all just explodes.

Leaving naught but a shell,
Base functionality too.
But killing all else,
That was uniquely you.

So how do you grow,
With a timebomb inside?
Or how to defuse it,
Without destroying its ride?

You can't.

~ { 7:48 PM }
reflections of you and me;