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Friday, June 29, 2007

lost someone dear to me....
Not feeling well today, my head feels like ton and my eyes hurt. Maybe it’s because of the shock I got 2 days ago. A dear friend of mine passed away in a bike accident 2 nights ago. He was very close me. I love his bike but never really rode on it. On the morning of Thursday 26 June this year I received a call from my former teacher informing me that my friend died. It came to me as a shock. He was a smart and quite. He didn’t really like to talk much with girls. So I guess I can say that I was one of the luck ones who knew him and became close friends. He was also known as the most careful rider. He never got a ticket for speeding or such. He was a clear spreadsheet. It never came into my mind that he would get in an accident. He died on the spot due to internal bleeding. He was one of the closest friend, I’ve ever had who’s a guy. He never disrespected me in anyway. We also went lunch together whenever we could. We always asked me if I wanted a ride home but I told him no. due to certain reasons. He understood. But when I found out that he died. I just broke down. I just couldn’t believe it. He was so young. He’s only 21. He will be missed by all. Especially me. I’m really going to miss talking to him on msn every night. We would talk about our lives in school and work. And I would complain to him about my other friends and school. Well there’s no use crying anymore. It’s not like crying would bring him back right.

Anyway I want to say sorry to someone about the way I behave the other night. I was really upset about my friends’ death and he was trying to keep my mind off it. But I just couldn’t. I’m sorry….

~ { 6:57 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Wednesday, June 27, 2007

long long day.....
Today was a very long day for me. I lost one of my textbooks so now I’ve got to photocopy a friend’s textbook so that I can at least study for it before my lab test next week. And I’ve got back all my results and once again it’s a shocker. I failed 2 out of 5 of my papers. Well one of them was not that low just missed the average mark by 5. The other one…lets just say I told u so. I got 24/100 of JAVA! Yes! The subject that I hate the most. JAVA! And I failed it. Thank god I choose networking for my elective next semester. But the shocker was my networking paper. DAMN! I’m just thinking how I could even fail that paper, when I knew I could pass it. Well only one way to find out…wait till the teacher shows us our papers. Cause from what I heard from my other friends who were though by her said that she tends to fail the others that she doesn’t like. And your truly is one of them. Why she doesn’t like me because I correct her English sometimes and when she goes out the subject and suddenly lecturers us about something, I would be the one who would just stand up and tell her to move or get back to the subject. (in a nice way of course) I just want to find out if what my friends are saying is true. If they are then sorry…I’ll have to just write a letter to my section head and get him to look into this matter. Cause I don’t my grades to be affected just because I’m on her black listed list. I guess I just have to put in a lil more into my networking as well. Don worry my results will be the one that determines whether I take JAVA or networking so I’m still kinda safe. Well got to get to bed…really tired…just hope I can sleep…nite nite…

~ { 5:53 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Wednesday, June 20, 2007

longest entry ever....
I had fun yesterday. I met up with an old friend of mine. We’ve been friends for like 10 years plus. After we left our primary school we lost contact. We both went to different secondary schools and lived our own lives. But during hari raya 3 or 4 years ago, she took a chance and came over to my place. She was hoping that I would still be living here. And she was lucky. I’m still living in the same house for the past…oh….13, 14 years or so. It was nice to see her again. Back in our primary school days we were like sisters. There use to be 5 of us. She, my twin, me and 2 of our other friends. We even named ourselves after the Spice Girls. Ha ha ha…and I was Victoria. Ha ha ha…those were the days. I miss those days…we were so care-free. I still remember me and twin would be the last in class from primary 1 to 4. It was only in primary 5 that our grades got better. I guess that was when I realized that I didn’t want my life to go down the drain like some people. After that things just got better. I took my PSLE and was the 2nd in class. That was also the year that my dad told me that if I got 1st in class he would get me whatever I wanted. Well, technically not everything. When I was in primary 6 I started to have an interest in writing. The first story I wrote and titled “Saving the White Rhinos” it was base on a 5 minute video of white rhinos being killed for their horns. It was like 6 pages long. First time I wrote since a long story and it was my own. And since then I’ve been writing. When I got into secondary school. I took a nose drive and was 7th in class. I was kinda upset. But the years after that I kept on getting 1st in class. I held on to my father’s word that he’d get me what I wanted if I got 1st on class. I still remember when I was in primary school I was so scared to get my dad to sign my report card but when I was in secondary school. I had nothing to be a afraid of. Only my twin did. She didn’t do quite was well as I did but cant blame her. She was in normal academic and I was in the normal technical stream, which was a harder stream. She took more subjects then I did. And whenever I showed my dad my report card he would ask my twin what she wanted to be when she grew up. She wanted to a fashion designer. When it was to me he went like “you don have to tell me. You and your police force.” I would just giggle.

Well I guess if my dad didn’t give me that little push (the I’ll get you whatever you want) I wouldn’t be here. But poly is harder then ITE and secondary sch. And I wouldn’t be able to top my class anymore. But hey, I just want my diploma over and done with. And start working. Cause almost all my friends are either working or married. Yap…two of my friends are married, 3 are getting engaged, and the others are out there in the working world. And I’m still in school. Which is a good thing…at least with my diploma I would a sergeant or even a inspector. My pay would be like $1.5 K…haha haha…man I’ve written so much…I’d better ink off there…see ya….take care..

~ { 10:07 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Monday, June 18, 2007

BORED....
Nothing much happened today…it’s been a pretty boring day. Just really tired due to the sleepless night last. I just somehow couldn’t sleep. At least tonight I have movies to watch if I cant sleep. And I've been online looking for codes of my blog. Yes, i have a whole list of codes for the songs that i put on my blog. It's about 19 pages long and getting longer. Well write again soon. See ya…

~ { 5:47 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Saturday, June 16, 2007

master piece
Its been a long time since I updated my blog and chatting with my old frens…how r u people….hehe…its been a slow week. Went out my frens and all…went out with an old friend of mine, Siti. We went to a fun fair near our area but the rides were freaking expensive. So we walked around and decided to only take one ride which to us was worth our cash. The ride that we took was outrageous. By the time the ride stopped. My legs felt like jelly (jello) plus i lost my voice due to the screaming...haha... But it was fun…I had a great time. Its been a long time since I went out with my old friends. On Sunday I went out with my mom and met with my old ITE classmate. Its been 3 years since we met up and all of sudden we didn’t have anything to talk about. She was with her to be 'husband'. I guess we both grew apart. I mean we used to be so close. We like sisters. But time changed all that. i miss all my old frens...

Anyway after that night I was in the mood of cooking. For the first time…I’m using salmon. So on the menu was… corn rice with potato salad and smoked salmon. And I so love the dishes. It is a master piece. My master piece. I’m so proud of myself….hahaha…anyway I’ll write again soon…for now…its nite nite

~ { 9:13 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Saturday, June 9, 2007

i hate weddings...!
My project group thingy was canceled today so I had to follow my mom to a wedding. I knew I does have not gone for the wedding…I hate weddings. One is because u’ll meet all ur relatives there whom some u don’t wanna meet and second all the old folks would be asking “so when will you be getting married”. I’m like Hello! Do you people even know how old I am. Come on...i’ve not even finished my students, what more finding a job. This is would be the last time my mom would drag me to a wedding. ARGH! On top of that my aunt wanted us to say till the wedding ended. For a minute there I thought I was dead. They will be introducing me and my twin to all my other relatives which I never knew I had. Then they would introduce us to their sons. My twin would most likely like that. Me, forget it. I’ve still got 2 years of school left and oohhh…3 more working years. After that then maybe…just maybe I would be ready to get married. Marriage is something really important in a women’s life. To whom u are married to would determine your life. If u get someone who loves u…then ur life would be a happy one but if u choose the wrong guy. Then ur digging ur own grave. Well I got to go..see ya…wouldn’t wanna be ya….

~ { 8:30 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Friday, June 8, 2007

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!
Wow! Its been a long time since I wrote and finally my exams are over…woohoo…but too bad cant enjoy my hols. Got to baby-sit my nephews and niece. Argh! After one whole bloody long week of studying, my brain has started to hurt. One its because of me staying up late and studying and 2nd is because of something else.

You I think I am taking life a little too seriously. Got to relax a little bit more. Like the way I was when I was in ITE. Having fun during drama and my teakwando trainings. I miss my drama friends and my director…and here’s another thing I learnt. I’m the kinda of person who cant control her temper. When I’m angry I then to say or do a lot of hurtful things even to the people who have done nothing wrong. one of which is urs truly. And somehow I feel kinda massed up after last nite. We had a talk I realized that I’ve been shutting urs truly out most of the time. I feel really bad about it. After last nite my chest felt heavy and I was really down…I guess I need sometime to relax and get things back on track. And I have 2 weeks to do that. before i link off i just wan to say sorry to someone...and tat person who he is....so i'm sorry....

~ { 3:30 AM }
reflections of you and me;