Thank you....
Had a rough day today. I had a lab test today but I lost 30 marks even before the lecturer marked my paper. Why you would ask…well that’s cause my program didn’t work. Maybe I could be able to just make it through. After the lab test I had a 2 hour break. So two of my classmates and I decided to pack our lunches and eat while we did our JAVA project. All the while I knew my program was working right. Everything was working fine the night before. But when I started on my program it refused to work. I asked help from my classmate Aaron. But even he gave up after awhile.

I was on the verge of giving up, I even cried. I knew that there was nothing wrong with my codes. And in the end, I found out it wasn’t my code. It was laptop all along. Its due to the firewall and some internet configurations on my laptop. Masita helped me a lot today. I really, really thank her. If she didn’t help I don’t know how I would get my program working. Now I’m that much closer to finishing my JAVA project. Thank you so much Masita.

While on the way back from a long day. I felt very tired and sleepy. The strange thing I felt giddy. I felt like the floor under my feet was tilted to one side. Every time I looked down I felt like falling. Even on the bus I was fighting to stay awake cause my place was only a few stops away…I think its better if I go to sleep now and I guess I’ll skip tomorrow’s law lecture. I really need the sleep.

3 days straight of the same nighmare
For the first time of my 2nd year in Poly…I got home from school…didn’t change out of my clothes and just landed on and fell asleep instantly. I got home from school around 6 that day and slept for like and hour or so. Had dinner, went online for awhile and went back to sleep at 10.45…but still I found it difficult to get up.

3 days in a row I couldn’t get up cause I felt like I was pinned down. I was physically wake up but I just couldn’t get up. Plus I’ve been having the same nightmare of the same 3 nights. Its like dream in a dream. I dreamt that I was asleep and I was dreaming about being pinned down by the creature that had been hunting me in my dreams for the past year. As I woke from that dream, I see a small kid around the age of 6 or 7 at my room door and behind it was once again the creature. It picked the child up by the shoulder and breaking the child into half like a piece of stick. When I finally woke for real I had cold sweat running down face. Don’t ask me why I have these kinds of dreams for I’m as puzzled as you who are reading this.

gettin back on track....

rough times
Things have been quite rough. Got into a fight with my mom and she’s not talking to me. So fine. Plus been feeling uneasy lately…don know. Maybe it’s because a certain someone said that love has changed. And he wasn’t kidding about it. I could see the change in him. There’s only one question in my head now. How has it changed? I don’t blame him for feeling this way. But I guess, I’ll just take it slow and go with the flow. I’m going to be very busy with my projects and assignments piling up.

Might be getting a new phone. The contract on my SingTel line has ended so I’ll be renewing my line and changing my phone. I’ll be getting a Nokia 6288. Ya, I know some of you might think…why don I get the N80. Well, I don have the cash. Anyway I’m not really into the latest phones…anyway got to go…I’m starting my lesson how….oh and Hi buster….

I'M A GROWN WOMAN! GIVE ME A BREAK!
School was fine. Everything was alright. And for the first time after so long, I did my own DMSD lab work. Yes…yes…from labs 3 to 6 I copied from my friend. But I started doing my own labs today. And DMSD is not as difficult as I thought it was. I managed to get the hang of it. So from now on the lecturer would be seeing my own works. He he he…anyway things are alright

Till my mom just had to piss me off. I had planned to out with my friends on National Day to watch the fireworks which is a yearly thingy for us. It’s the only time I get a girls night out. Its not like I'm clubbing or anything. Its just watching the fireworks and then go home. The fireworks are like only for 20 mins. Even that my mom wants to tag along. COME ON! I’M 21 NOT 12! HELLO! I’VE GOT MY LIFE TO YOU KNOW! The reason why she decided to tag along like a lap post is because she doesn’t like the friends I mix with. Look I know who I mix with. I’M 21. let me make my own mistakes and learn from them. How else am I to learn about life! I just HATE it when my mom treats my like a 12 year old. When I was younger fine you can tag along everywhere I go. But I’m a grown woman now! Let me live my life, already. I’ve set a goal in my life and I’ve worked hard to get where I am now. POLY! Do you really think I want to throw this down the drain by doing something stupid? If any one of you thinks like that. THEN I’LL MAKE YOU EAT YOUR WORDS! If my mom doesn’t want me to tell her mom then FINE! THEN STAY OUT OF MY LIFE!.

feeling biter!
Feeling bitter today. Don’t know why. I had like a 4 hour break and I was alone. Yap! For once yours truly felt reject,and alone with no one around(for such a friendly person like me that is really sad) No one around for 2 hours…till my best friend came to the rescue. She came all the way from Yishun. Which is like all the way on the other side of the island. She came down just to be with me. he he he…she a sweet thing. She has been my best friend for like 11 years. She was there when no one else was around. For once today I felt that my ring of friends is getting smaller. And now I know who my true friends are. And I have only one. Hidayu, the sweet girl I knew since primary school. I’ve never felt so lonely in my life. I was on the verge of crying. But it was a good thing she came. She brightened up my day even if it was only for awhile.

Things kinda started to get better later on the evening. I met my mom and twin at Ang Mo Kio hub, and bumped into my former ITE Bishan classmate, Linda. She looked prettier then she was in ITE. He he he…we started talking and suddenly two more of my former classmates from ITE Bishan popped up. It was like a lil class reunion thingy. We started talking about our lives and stuff. After which we switched numbers. I just hope I don loose them numbers again. Anyway got to go…got a very long day tomorrow. Just for the record I’m still feeling kinda bitter so those who are sparring with me tomorrow beware.