HOLIDAY!!!
Another holiday…woohoo…just what I needed for such a busy week. At least that would give me time to read up on my notes. Which means…I’ll be studying tomorrow even if it’s a holiday. I don’t really have time to “enjoy” myself cause school is getting tougher and I want to at least ace 1 of my modules but I guess its too early to say. I need to get my term tests done only then I can see where I stand. And term test is just around the corner *bites nails*. Nothing much happened today just that I had a bad hair day but... it’s nothing I can’t cover up. Everything else went smoothly. And tomorrow I’m going to get a dress. I’ve been eyeing that dress for a few weeks now. It’s really nice. Let’s just hope it would still be around when I get it tomorrow. Well, that’s all for today…see you on Wednesday…enjoy the holiday…HAPPY LABOUR DAY PEOPLE!!!

I hate today!

Today I realized how strong my slap can be. I got into a fight with my twin. I was so angry with what she said that I slapped her face to keep her mouth shut. But before I slapped her gave her a warning to stop her nonsense but she just kept on going. So I slapped her. Well another reason why I slapped her is because of my phone which she dropped and now os beyond repair. She deserved that slapped. She kept on saying things which are not true. And she keeps claming that she’s so good and that she was the one that was mistreated. She was the one who has been acting like madam in the house and she said she’s being mistreated. The only one I see being mistreated is my mom. Ok so I’m not a saint. But I still try to help my mom with the housework. But my twin is just too much. Since she started working she has been acting like this. She treats everyone else like her maid.

And my mom is angry with me because I slapped my twin. Oh and her glasses broke. Will it didn’t really break the lens just came out and her upper lip had a small cut. I never knew my slapped was that strong. When I found out that her lip was bleeding I felt bad but she deserved it. She and my mom can drive anyone up the wall with just words. My twin was asking for it and I believed it. Got a long day in school. Oh and I’ve got no phone. My twin dropped it during the fight and now it refuses to switch on. So I got no phone. At least I got some peace and quite from my friends. Well gotta go. See ya…

Not my day....
Today hasn’t been my day. Woke up at around 9 with a major headache. Then my nose started to run like a tap. My head feels like someone or something is squeezing it like a sponge. Don’t have a fever which is good. I feel like throwing up. And my mom cooked Laksa today…*sob sob* but I forced myself to eat. I’ve not taken my medication cause my mom is out and my stupid twin will lets just say she likes sitting on her fat ass all day. She came from home work at 12. She saw that my nephew and niece is around and she never did anything and she had the check to tell me that she’s going to the Community Center to use the internet that cause she knows I will never lead my laptop to her again. The last time I lent it to her to do her STUDIES…she was on msn chatting with a guy. And now she went out so I’m alone with the kids. If I had taken my medication I would fall asleep and no one will look after the kids. My twin only cares for herself. She uses people then throws them away like an old rag. She doesn’t care if anyone is sick. All she wants is for her to come home sleep, eat and go out with her friends. Everysince she started work that’s all that she’s been doing and when my mom wakes her up from her sleep she would say “When I feel you people wake me up. But when Nazirah (me) sleeps you people just keep quite. You don’t care that I’m sick. Nazirah is the only one who can get sick.”

That’s the reason why even when I’m sick I try to do housework or look after my nephew and niece. So that she wouldn’t use it against me. and she will use everything is can dig up to save her ass…some sister! The only one who asked about me was my eldest sister, when she is sick as well. I guess it’s the season to be sick…

WEEKEND IS HERE!!!!
Finally the weekend is here. It has been a very long week. I’ve got like 2 projects I need to finish by May 8th. Got so much things to do. So I guess the plan about changing the layout of my room has to be put on hold for now. Just got to get use to my school schedule. And plus since a friend of mine I studying at a school that’s near by my school and i mean near(two stops away near). He sends me and a few others to school as well. So looks like I don’t really need to wake up so early. Good thing he leaves near my place as well. And he’s got a car…so no more being late for or lectures of tutorials…he he he..and finally I managed to embed this video onto my blog. I so love this song….listen to the lyrics and you’ll know why….well see ya…around… *hugs and kisses*

long week....
This has been a long week for me and I’m looking forward for the weekend. Man! this week was rough. I mean with school and having to wake up early every morning. And guess what…I’m not taking French! I got into LAW!!!! WOOHOO! Yesterday was my first tutorial on law and it was fun. Can’t for the next tutorial and lecture…he he he…well for this semester I’ve got 2 really tough modules that I so need to pass. Cause I don’t want to retake it again. And both have got something to do with programming. And I thought I could run away from it. Oh well, I’ve just got to face the fact that computer programming is everywhere and there’s no running away from it in Information Communication (the courser I’m in). Oh ya…I’ve got a lecturer who looks like mike and former drama director combine. I guess I can live with that. And he speaks good English. Finally someone whom I can understand and thank god he’s teaching one of the difficult subjects “SQL” for those who don’t know what SQL stands for feel free to look it up.

Anyway remember the 3rd Sidney Sheldon book, I’ve stopped reading it. No it’s not that I’ve lost interest. I just don’t really like reading about the government and politics and stuff. So I guess for now on my long bus rides to school and back, I’ll be reading my school books. But I will for sure go back to reading Sidney Sheldon’s books during the holiday (which is I guess in 6 weeks time). And that’s all folks….see ya...

Go for English Courses will YA!!!!!!!
Ok today was the worse day ever in my whole poly life besides the fact that I had a hard time with my teammates last year. But today was just too much. This was what happened.

5.30 Alarm rang. Too sleep to wake up. So went back to sleep

5.45 Alarm rang again. So went to have shower

6.00 Hd breakfast while checking the timetable for today

6.45 Left home and found out I left my handphone at home

7.00 Boarded the bus

7.25 Got off and changed to another bus

8.20 Two stops away from school.

8.35 Finally arrived in class which start at 8

8.40 Found out teacher cant speak nor spell good English to save his ass

10.00 Class was OVER! Went to change one of my extra modules got French and first but didn’t want to take the chance of failing so decided to take up Law as 1st choice, 2nd was something to do with the arts.

11.00 Went for the next class (lecture)

11.10 Found out that another teacher couldn’t speak English so save his ass. At least the first one still had a chance to live if made more effect to pronounce his words right.

12.00 LUNCH!!! Started to have cramps! Very bad cramps! Had no mood to eat so had a cup of hot coffee to help with the tummy cramps

12.55 Found out the Juz a drama friend of mine was in my school WOOHOO!!!

1.00 Found out that there was nowhere to run from JAVA programming. That’s right folks more JAVA which means more headaches. EEERRR!!!! But at least the teacher was alright. Was thought by him before so I was cool with it.

2.00 Cramps were not making this better.and things got worse as the 1st teacher of the day was my lecturer as well. DAMN!

3.00 MORE JAVA Programming in the lab

5.00 FRENCH! But because of the pain I was going through besides to skip it cause they don’t mark attendance so didn’t really matter.

I have 2 indian teachers who cant speak English properly and they are both my tutor and lecturer. This is gonna be a long…long semesters…

nightmares again...!
I don’t know if these stupid dreams or nightmares are going to continue. If they do…then I might catch some ZZZs in school which is a no no…cause that would lead to missing class. The only diff is that my attendance wouldn’t have to suffer…or maybe it just paranoia getting to my head and clouding my thoughts and feelings at the same time. Was at my sister’s place today and I finally got started which my Sidney Sheldon book “Nothing last forever” (which is true). I am at page 100 now. Cant believe I read a hundred pages in 1 day. Amazing! Well for me that is. I mean I could hardly seat down and get through the first 3 pages of an book since I was 12. well behinds reading Sherlock Holmes but that was the only book and read. And now I’m hocked to Sidney Sheldon. Can’t put the book down. Now you can actually catch me reading on the bus. Which I have never done.

2 more days before school start WOOHOO! I managed to borrow some French books from my sister. When I first flipped through the book it was like I’m reading a alien language or something. But I guess when I start going for lectures and tutorial I would start to absorb the language slowly. Well its getting late and I wanna read my book he…he…he…he see you guys on Monday. Enjoy the weekends or whatever’s left of it.

sleepless night....
Well today was pretty boring as always…the only diff is that my mom wasn’t home. It was kinda boring without my mom around. Anyway my old ITE friend came over today. She just needed help with her school work so I helped her out till like 8pm. And now I’m home with my twin, she's on my bed reading her Sidney Sheldon book. Ya ya…it was because of her I got hocked to the book. Anyway I didn’t start reading my book yet. I thought of reading it last night but was too tired. So I thought I was just get some sleep but couldn’t. I know that I was not asleep. I was just lying around waiting to fall asleep, when I started have flashes almost vision like. I saw myself dead and about to be berried but couldn’t be berried due something. I don really know what it was. Then I suddenly see myself in hell. As in hell…hell…when I got up I started crying. I couldn’t stop crying. I was feeling scared but I didn’t know what I was scared off. I couldn’t talk to anyone cause everyone was asleep so I texted a friend of mine. I guess when he read the message I sent him he called me. He tried to comfort me, saying that it might have been a bad dream and that the devils were just playing around. Maybe it was and plus it was a Friday night (malam , Jumaat). He then told me to wash my face, have a cup of hot Milo and say my prayers before I sleep again but I couldn’t sleep the whole night.(thanks Hassan) I cried myself to sleep. I guess I only had like about 2 hours of sleep before my mom called me at 9 the in the morning today. And my eyes were swelled up due to the crying. On top of that I had a massive headache it took me a few hours just to get out of bed to shower. Even now I have a headache. I don’t know if I can sleep tonight. I just hope I can cause I need to go to my sister’s place and look after my nephews and niece. They’re down with fever and my sister has got a class in the morning. I just hope I can sleep…

Ok so now I’ve to learn French...*bites nails* It’s a good thing and bad thing. Good thing is my elder sister has taken French and the bad thing is I don’t know if she can help me. It’s been a long time since she took. So I don’t know if she still can remember and I don’t know if she wants to teach me. Anyway looks like school would end pretty late this semester. I’ve got like 3 days I end school at 5. And school starts at 8 on Mondays and 9 every other day. Lets just pray that the subject aren’t tat different…I need to pull my GPA. Most of my former teachers want me to study in NTU (National Technology University). I was kinda heart broken when I told them that my GPA (general point average) was 2. They are expecting alot from me and I know the only reason why is because they know I can do it. And I need to get at least a 3 and above to get into NTU. It never really crossed my mind to go to NTU but lets just see how things go for now. Then maybe just maybe I would think about going NTU. For now, I’ll just concentrate on pulling up my GPA up and getting a job. It’s not like schooling in Singapore is free. Well got to go. Sidney Sheldon here i come.....ha ha ha got another book. i finished the first one which was "The Naked Face" now it's "Nothing Lasts Forever".....well bye...

i wld ring my teachers neck if i cld......
Woohoo! School starts next week…weeee….only 5 more days before I return to TP…cant believe how fast time flies...I guess some of you might think where has this girl been…MIA as some would say. Well I’ve been busy reading which I’ve not done in years. As in reading a book. I have to admit the last book I read was Sherlock Holmes…that was like when I was 16 I guess. I could never finish a book if a start reading. I loose interest fast. But this book just got me reading all day and all night. I mean picture this. I wake up take a shower then I start cooking and cleaning the house if I have too…after which I would be sitting down reading the book till my mom comes back. Then I would watch tv have lunch and then around 7 I would go online and chat with my friends while reading the book again, till about 3 in the morning. Usually after 11 my room lights would be off. So I would sit on my chair in the dark and the only source of light is from my laptop or my block next door. That is how addicted I am to this book. Oh and something happened yesterday. I went back to my former to collect a cheque and at the same time I met up with some of my former teachers. Since it was the first day of school for some students. They had the yearly orientation and my former teachers were in charge of it. So they asked me to come along after which we had coffee. The orientation was held in the auditorium. It was the same old speech about ITE being a stepping stone and all that shit. But what really took me by surprise was that my former who gave the speech and mentioned about having a former student who came from ITE and is now in Poly. And there was only one former student there. ME! I swear if I could ring my teachers neck I would have that very moment. And on top of all that he called me down to talk to the students and tell them about my ITE life. Which was already covered but the teachers and section heads. What the hell was I to say? I was shivering on stage due to the cold and nervousness. I know someone u might think but you have stage experience. Yeah that is if you’ve been practicing a script for months. But everything when well just hope I did humiliate myself my there. I really miss my ITE life. So carefree. And life in ITE was easy. You’ll be an idiot if you failed the exams. You can’t fail. That was how easy my ITE life was. I miss that life. Oh well life still has to go on…as not like living in Singapore would get any easier…

bored

changing the layout of my room...
Okay another day of my…oh…so boring life was passed. Well today nothing much happened. I kinda sat at home the whole thinking of changing the layout of my bedroom. I wanna to spell me name when people come in…(ya like real) well I’m just gonna remove some unwanted stuff and book rack that looks like old. I just want my room to have more space. And maybe I’ll put up some pictures on the wall. I could get my nephew to help out with that. He just loves to make things. Then at least my nephew would have room to play in my room and they wouldn’t be so scared of coming in. that reminds me I need to get rid of all my old ITE textbooks that I still keep. I thought of still keeping them cause they might come in pretty useful sometimes. I can get rid of some (a whole file full) old math papers that I have…I’ve been keeping them for about…oh…2 years now. I thought it would come in handy when I took engineering math but since I don’t any more…(yay for me) I can threw them out the window…he he he…but there is only one thing tat can’t change place. My closet…it’s too big and too heavy to move. So that will just stay where it is….I better start get my imaginative juices going...he he he he…

more edited pictures......

me

ma and sally

my favourite picture....stairway to heaven....

LETS START DRINKING AND BE MARRY
WOOHOO!!! so happy today...first i passed my math supp paper...WOOHOO!!! i'm going into second year WITH MY CLASS!!! thanks to aisya who has helped me out during the hols...thanks girl...weeeee!!! Ha ha ha...NO MORE MATH...NO MORE MATH!!! NO MORE MATH!!!!!!! YAY!!! FOR ME....*starts dancing the kucco mamdo*

well not my whole class...a classmate for mine didnt do so well so she's got to retake the whole module again....but hey its not the end of the world...sally if u reading this girl...if u need any help i'll there...ok...i'm jus a phone call away...

cheer for sally

SALLY....sally...sally..go go....(anyone who watched the disney channel wld know this) ha ha ha ha....

i miss my ITE LIFE thou...these are come special moments...

me and my girl Suzy
me and gerrin
me in the ite toilet got nothing better to do...
the class of MMT2V...
me and my buddy Jimmy Neutron...(not)
the drama girls...except suzy