feeling EMO
Sometime I feel it sucks being me…this hari raya hasn’t been very fun at all. Been emo for like 2 days now. One because it is confirmed that my re-married to a bitch. When I felt saw her I though she was someone’s maid. Well my dad has always wanted someone who would listen to his every word and bow down to him. I guess a maid would also do than. Second was when I told my mom that I wanted to go out and visit my friends. She gave me her pissed off look. HEY! At least I asked! You don even know what does on with Nazimah. I don bring home a different guy like her okay! I love Hafiz and I want to be with him. But sometimes times like this makes me feel that he deserves so much better than this. No guy deserves to go though what he goes though. Our relationship hasn’t been easy. But Hafiz has kept his cool and I’m afraid. I’m afraid of when he cant keep him cool any more and if he gets bored of me because of what’s happening. I don’t know. I feel so lost. I love him; I want the best for him. I don want to fight any more. I’m tired both psychically and mentally tired. It hurts when I look at his pictures; it hurts even more when I speak to him on the phone. I hurts cause I don’t want to loose him but I feel like I am. Maybe its just me……………this song best suits my emo feeling now...

i wan MSN and the INTERNET!!!
Damn I’ve been working that I have no time to even update my blog. I don’t even have time to go online and I’ve lost contact with most of friends. And what’s worse is that I work in a place with such high security that I don’t have internet access at ALL. AAAHHH!!! I can’t live like this. I need my MSN, facebook and blog. And i’ve been warned to upload my office pictures online. On top of that my boss added to facebook. So this would mean he would know when I log in. If he found out that I logged in during officer hours, I’m a goner. Haiz….

Anyway work is alright. Pretty slow but at least I have somewhere to run to when my mom gives me her attitude. She jus did that to me 2 days ago just because she wanted to go geylang to get a floral arrangement but due to my uncle and I working, we couldn’t make it. So since she can’t go, she gives me the cold shoulder which actually I don’t really care. But what made me pissed off was that she can go back on her words in seconds. She says one thing to me and tells my uncle something else. Haiz….

And the best news I’ve heard is….there is an OVERSEAS TRIP for my department. WEEEE!!! Hmmm…where should I go…Bali, KL, Genting or Batam. I know the last one sounds a little funny right? But rest assure the department I work with will not allow any such thing to happen. And the bad thing about this trip is that I can’t during anyone with me…sad…well that is all the updates I can do for now…I will try to update my blog again soon….

WORK over load
Ok work is coming up slowly but I’m already feeling the pressure cause I just had a talk with my boss and he has made it pretty clear that things are not going to be very easy and that there are more work to do. But nonetheless, I will do. I know I can and I have to. At least it gives my boss a good impression and also I have an excuse to continue my contract. Haiz…and this Sunday I have an IFTRA event where I’m the MC and I’m doing the banner design only….thank GOD. Otherwise WORK over load…

On the sunny side up…2 Malay officers can into my office and saw my darling’s picture and they gave that darn she’s attached look. Haha I so love it…one can ask if I was Malay? I mean hello you see me people in my picture gallery wearing tudong. Isn’t it pretty lame for u to even ask if I was Malay? OF COURSE LAH! And to tell you the truth people will do the most stupidest of things…sorry but I cant tell you what some people are capaible of doing. But serious if you were in shoes you’d be laughing at them too. Anyway most of my work requires a lot of confidentiality so sorry if I can’t talk much about work. All I can say is I pretty much having fun at work…ok got to head off now….this is MSO Shariffa signing out….