YES Finally GOOD some news
YES! YES! MY PROJECT IS RUNNING! WOOHOO! Today is like the 3rd most happiest day of my life. When I left class I was feeling like very worried about my project and guilty because I had to rush for training and Aisya was staying back doing the project. but its thanks to HER that my project is working. THANK YOU SO MUCH GIRL. I owe you one, darling. I owe you big time. When I heard the news I broke into tears. I was damn happy. I mean who wouldn’t, man. Now, we have like 30% more to work on and that is excluding the special features. But I guess we are back on track once again. Let’s pray that we do stay on track and fall behind…anyway I got a whole lot more work to do now. Will update soon. Oh and my understanding theater lecturer has agreed to read MY SCRIPT. I just hope he wouldn’t get a headache after reading it. Haha….those of you who have been track of my blog would know you. Anyway…I gotta so lots of other work to do and plus my Basic Theory Test is tomorrow morning…gotta get up early. Well..see ya wouldn’t wanna be ya.

STRESS!!!
Ok…I know I’ve not updated for awhile now. I’ve been so freaking busy with my projects. I got to like say behind in school just to finish it and due to that my mom is screaming at me. Then what am I suppose to do. I need to finish my projects. Right now, I have to think of finishing my projects in time. There is no way I’m going to sit for a sub paper for a project based module. NEVER! And like I have 3 different projects which contains nothing but head cracking codes. JAVA CODES! And I thought I could run away from JAVA. DAMN IT! I was So Wrong.

Anyway, on to other matters. I need to start reading for my Driving Test on Saturday. I don’t know if I’m able to pass. And on top of all of this I’m not feeling. I’ve not been feeling well for the past week. Maybe it’s due to the stress from school and home. Home stress is because my mom calls me up screaming cause she’s made that I’m staying behind till 10pm. But I have no choice. If my laptop could somehow access the school’s server (which I don’t think its allowed) then I’d love to do my work at home. At least I don’t have to freeze my ass in class. Its like a freezer.
Anyway got to go. I got my lecturer to call my mom and tell her where I am. And told him that I would leave at 9:30. see ya.

STRESS!!
Ok…I know I’ve not updated for awhile now. I’ve been so freaking busy with my projects. I got to like say behind in school just to finish it and due to that my mom is screaming at me. Then what am I suppose to do. I need to finish my projects. Right now, I have to think of finishing my projects in time. There is no way I’m going to sit for a sub paper for a project based module. NEVER! And like I have 3 different projects which contains nothing but head cracking codes. JAVA CODES! And I thought I could run away from JAVA. DAMN IT! I was So Wrong.

Anyway, on to other matters. I need to start reading for my Driving Test on Saturday. I don’t know if I’m able to pass. And on top of all of this I’m not feeling. I’ve not been feeling well for the past week. Maybe it’s due to the stress from school and home. Home stress is because my mom calls me up screaming cause she’s made that I’m staying behind till 10pm. But I have no choice. If my laptop could somehow access the school’s server (which I don’t think its allowed) then I’d love to do my work at home. At least I don’t have to freeze my ass in class. Its like a freezer.
Anyway got to go. I got my lecturer to call my mom and tell her where I am. And told him that I would leave at 9:30. see ya.

beward long entry...
I had a very slow day today. My mom planned…I REPEAT my MOM planned to go Johor so ok fine. My boss cum uncle said he’ll try to find a way and drive us there. But this morning due to a band member of his who passed away he couldn’t make it in the morning. So he said lets see how the traffic flow to Malaysia is like if there’s a jam we’d go once traffic eases down. BUT NO! At 5 she had to put on her BLACK face and start talking behind my back. I just ignored it. Around 6 my uncle called and told me that since the traffic jam is heavy we’d go in around 8 – 8.30 so I told him fine. It’s not as if the shops are gonna be closed at that time. Around 7.45, my uncle called again and said ok we’ll be going into Johor. By that time SHE PRETENDS to sleep. I REPEAT pretended to sleep. When I woke her up she said she was too tired and asked me to go instead. What is she trying to prove? Does everything have to follow her timing? Everyone else has a life to, you know. And there is NO WAY I’m gonna drive into Johor with my mom when I get my license, NEVER. This is another reason why when I have the chance to stay in school and do something productive I will.

I’ve been staying back in school very often these days. One to finish up my projects which are due in 3 weeks time and second to avoid all this unnecessary nonsense from my mom and my twin, especially now that things are kinda heating up with the house matter and my dad. My dad or her can come to my school or call up the school and ask where I am. I know what I’m doing is for my own good and for my future. I just need to get this stupid cert and that is it. I would be working and the money problem would decrease. Money problem decrease, fights in the house decrease and since I’m gonna be working, if there is a fight at home. I’m just gonna tell my boss I’m doing OT. If not go out somewhere and relax if my friend CT can’t make it then fine. I’ll stay at the CC till 10 pm or so then I’ll head back home and SLEEP! Right now I just have to finish my projects, finish school. And if this is what having a family is about. I ain’t gonna get married. I’d rather live my life alone. Earn money for myself. Spend the money myself and enjoy myself. And if I have some cash left I would donate it or something. Or maybe pamper my nephew’s and niece. Become the aunt that spoils them but in a good way that is. If I’m lonely and wanna have kids I’ll just adopt one.

love the love that hurts...

STRESS week is up ahead....
Nothing much happened today just that my classmates and I laughed our heads off during our break, thanks to Aisya. He he he she’s a really sweet girl. Aisya, Kee Suan YanLing and I were talking about the new year celebrations and thought of having the next new years celebration at Yanling’s place. But since she’s a Chinese we cant eat at there place. So I decided to cook something and BRING over. And silly Aisya thought that I would be bring my pots and pans over to Yanling’s place to cook. Kee Suan and I were laughing our heads off just imagining how one would carry their pots and pans. It was damn funny. I know it doesn’t sound funny. But it was when all of us where talking about it. It was fun. Kee Suan and me agreed that it was like the joke of the year man. LOL. Just thinking about it now is making me laugh.

Besides that, we have to start bashing our heads on our projects. We’ve got two projects that we’ve not really started on and it like due in about 2 weeks. So tomorrow I’ll have to stay in school in try and finish as much as I can. And plus my twin’s friend is coming over to help me with my laptop. Somehow its been affect by spy wear and I have to get rid of it fast. I just nothing else goes wrong….anyway gotta go. Need to stay research on my projects…see ya…

good bye 2007...
If there was something I learnt in 2007 was not to trust anyone full heartedly. Cause you’ll end up with a broken heart. I guess the saying once bitten twice shy failed to register in my head. After last night I’ve come to a conclusion that you can’t trust anyone not even yourself. The only one you can trust is god. I know funny that this is coming me but it’s true. God is the only one can trust. My heart was broken not once last night but twice. 2007 had been a tough year for both my family and me. Don’t know about my twin though. She seems to be quiet the happy one while everyone else had to worry about the bills and I had to worry about what my dad would do next.

To tell you the truth my dad is a nice person. So is my mom but when talks about money come into play they will fight like cats and dogs. And now I’m caught in the cross fire. I can understand that both of them are having financial problems. But don’t have fight over it like this am I right. They drive to the point of me hating the both them. And when I get frustrated at home. Anyone who makes the smallest of mistake will get it from me and plus I have a very bad habit for just keeping it inside. I just bottle up everything till I cant take it anymore, and that was what happened last night. I tried so hard not to let it show. But I couldn’t. My face couldn’t hold the masks that I’ve put on to make people happy. I just can’t. I thought going out last night with my best buddy would make things a little better. You know, clear my head and all before the new year. But that didn’t happen. Just before I left my twin had to kick up a bloody fuse and so did my mom. But I still went. When I was out I found out that my trust on someone had been broken. I was pissed off. I just kept it inside and just kept quite. I sat there thinking about what happened in 2007 and what might happen in 2008 and I lost the mood to celebrate. My heart sank, for I knew 2008 wouldn’t be any easier. I just have to prepare myself for more heart breaks and worries…I would advise everyone else to do the same…

HAPPY NEW YEAR!