2nd day of Hari Raya
It’s the second day of Hari Raya and boy…am I tired. Been visiting a lot of people for the past two days. But somehow the mood of Hari Raya and decreased for me. I’m not as excited as I was before. Especially this year, for this is the year where I found out that you can’t rely on your best friends to help you in times of need. Sometime you can’t rely anyone but yourself. And I’ve also learnt to choose my friends wisely plus being alone and not having much friends is, isn’t that lonely. Trust me it would be better. Having your relatives would be good enough. For me, my best friend was always been my journal. My blog isn’t really my journal. I have one that I’ve kept for 3 years or so. That journal can only be read when I die. Anyway school is starting soon. CAN’T WAIT. Been bored to death at home with nothing to do. I started photo editing again. But I found out that I’m getting worse at it somehow. I guess what someone of my classmates and my sister said was true. I’m a jack of all trades but a master of none. Or maybe I just need more time to play around with photo editing.

Well…its late and I better get to sleep before my mom and I fight over marriage again. She just wants me to get married fast but I don’t. Marriage is not a play thing. You’re gonna be spending the rest of your life with some stranger. Ok so maybe not ‘some’ stranger but still. You’ve never lived with that person, you wouldn’t know their true colours till you’re married to them. Please I’m not will to be married to a man who only thinks of himself or who cant take care of the family. If…god forbid…I get married to someone like that I’d rather live alone but by then I better have a good cert so that I don’t have to cling on to him for support or what so ever. I just want to finish my studies get a stable job, enjoy myself traveling or fulfilling my dreams then I’ll settle down. I guess that would make me 25 or 26 by the time I’m ready for marriage.