<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar/3742617509956029559?origin\x3dhttp://ladydice.blogspot.com', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe", messageHandlersFilter: gapi.iframes.CROSS_ORIGIN_IFRAMES_FILTER, messageHandlers: { 'blogger-ping': function() {} } }); } }); </script>

Sunday, April 27, 2008
Sat and Sun OT!! WTH!!!
Ok, firstly thanks mr steven lee. Somehow you failed to mention that my group and I had to assist a bunch to people in an internet marketing course. Which was quite interesting but someone just had to drive me nuts. Well there’s this guy. In his about late 50s or 60s. he jus kept on asking questions which I felt was not really that not relevant if he had been paying attention and not falling asleep. Aisya was the first to assist him and somehow passed him to Gina and then, she past him to me. I thought he was the innocent type. But he was another D.O.M…for those for you who want to know what I mean email me. And I’ll tell you. He just made me feel really uncomfortable with him. The others were fine and shall not mention names…but none the less. We had fun. Haha the notebook that I brought became a form of entertainment and gossip for us. HEHE! You should read it if you get the chance.

Ok ok I know we are supposed to behaving like professionals or at like business people and all but I mean come on. When ever he said something dirty he would look at me and every minute he would call me and ask me a whole lot of questions. But thank god its over. But feeling damn drained. Mr steven lee had better let us claim our Saturday and Sunday. Its considered OT (over time). Its not fair. This whole week 9 to 5. had plus I have not had enough sleep. I think I better sleep now too…nite see ya wouldn’t wanna be ya…oh and pics will be posted 2rw if i have the time and if i'm not as drained as today

~ { 11:00 PM }
reflections of you and me;

Thursday, April 24, 2008
peoms tat i describes how i feel rite nw...
NOW WHAT
Pain filling my heart,
Pain filling my soul,
Tearing through my mind,
Leaving another gaping hole.
Wanting to escape,
Just to be free,
Leave this emotion behind,
Wanting to be left be
Looking across the room,
Scissors,
Razors,
Safety-pins,
Knives,
What shall it be this time.
Not wanting to die,
But wanting to get away.
Why is physical pain,
So much easier to endure,
Than the hole,
Growing deep inside,
Always carried with me,
Never to let go.
KILLING MY HEART, SOUL, MIND
A searing pain stabs its way into my heart,
It grabs a hold and pulls the pain down,
The knife digs deeper and deeper,
It makes a line toward my chest,
My chest becomes heavy,
It's now difficult to breathe,
Something has a grab on my lungs,
And squeezes the life from me.
It wrings and rips my insides to pieces,
It's stuck on tight and won't let go.
Misery and desolation run through my head,
Causing the pain to soar again.
Thinking of you made me happy,
But the pain then came again.
Taking me over,
Taking me under,
Taking me down with it.
I spiral into depression,
A hold I cannot come out of,
A void of darkness,
A place of hatred,
A place of pain,
A place of death.
My soul struggles to be free,
My heart aches to be whole,
My head wants to be light,
I want to be able to breathe one more time.
Peoms by Chelsea Lybbert

~ { 12:15 PM }
reflections of you and me;

Wednesday, April 23, 2008
bloggin in school

Ok so I’m blogging school. Finally we have to something to work with. Met up with our “client” yesterday and he happened to be the lecturer’s former student, Mr. Alvin Pang the creator of Gather Success (it’s a web site). So right now we have to create a web service for him. Somewhat similar to http://www.payperpost.com/. It seems easy enough. But due to having to work with a different web designing language we’re having a hard time. But rest a sure, my team will try our very best to make this work. It’s the 3rd day of school and finally we have our servers and software up and running (i just hope I configured the PCs right). It’s been a long day and what’s worse is that I’m done with flu and fever again. 3rd time this month. I guess it’s the weather. I’m sure it’s not dengue or anything. I just pray that everything will work out right for my team.
My darling Shalu is now under attachment with my favorite restaurant Secret Recipe. Not really very sure what she does though but she seems like she doesn’t like working there. Well…its gonna be a very busy 6 mths for me. So I’m not sure if I can blog often. Will try to update you guys as much as I can…I gotta before I get caught. Oh and Mr. B, where have you disappeared to….drop me an email alrite….


~ { 5:44 PM }
reflections of you and me;

Monday, April 21, 2008
HOLS ARE OVER!
Ok so the hols are over and a new year begins. The first day of school was scary for me. Kinda worried about my major project. And the fact that it’s a total new territory for us makes it even worse. But luck for us we got Mr.Steven Lee who’s the lecturer in charge. It’s a good thing and a bad thing. Good thing is he’s familiar with us and the bad thing is he has very high expectations for our project. Does any one know how to use PHP (new territory)? All I know is that it’s some kind of web designing code.. So my team has to start from the bottom. I just pray we’ll be able to fill it off. And what makes it even worse is that the project is given by a company outside of my school. So its and external project, done in-house (in school). Very high expectations are gonna drive me up the wall. Can I start to cry now…. (crying in a corner of room while rocking back and forth while chanting “Please let the project be easy, please let the project be easy.”)

Now that I’m in my final year of my poly life, it gets harder as right now we are treated like working adults. This means we have a clocking system. Clock in by 9 in the morning and clock out at 6 in the evening. I clocked in today but didn’t clock out cause I took an Approved Leave (not really approved just yet) Ya, first day of school and I have to take leave. Lucky for me, my lecturer or now known as supervisor knows what’s happening with my mom and why I have to take leave. I took 3 Approve Leaves at one go. Due to my mom’s medical appointments. But I cant take so many other wise I would be called to the principles office. And that would suck. And it would give a very bad impression. My twin had better take leave for some of the days or she will get hell from me. This time I would hold back. I’ve heald back long enough. Well anyway, someone has been a lil quiet the past 3 days. I’m starting to wonder why. Maybe, that someone is busy.

Oh and here are some pics from the make over…enjoy. (starting chanting again “please let the project be easy, please let the project be easy….”)


~ { 7:36 PM }
reflections of you and me;

Friday, April 11, 2008

Ok its been a while since I blogged. Well cant wait for school to start. Though a part of me is afraid for starting my 3rd and final year. After this I’m going to be out in the working well which I know is gonna be worse then school. Oh well…that’s life for you. Things at home have been slow besides the fact that I cleaned up the store and fell and hurt my back. But no worries I’ll be alright just need to rest up.

Oh and my girlfren has collected her make over pics. She looks cute. And I’m at worst model ever. The camera guy had a hard time taking my pics. Oh well… here’s a sneak peak of one of the many shots we took…enjoy….



~ { 1:34 PM }
reflections of you and me;