Fear running through once again. And you guessed it, it’s the project my team is working on. We’re starting on something new. When I heard what Alvin wanted Aisya and I looked at each other with the “YA ALLAH! Susahnya” translated “OH GOD! That’s difficult” faces. But the both of us are keeping a positive mindset. (I juts don’t know how long mine can last) I’m the kinda person who leans more on the pessimistic rather then the optimistic side. While Aisya is the “We are do it, Come on!”

On top of the project stress, my mom is going for her Haj this November. Ok I have to admit no matter what my parents put me through especially about the house and money staff, Deep inside, there’s a soft spot for them even though I’m rough. Things at home haven’t changed much. Still the same old things, my mom complaining about my dad and money and bills. Then there’s my twin who just creates trouble for herself which would trigger my mom screaming. Home was once a place that I would run to…but now a days even my room has no privacy sometimes. Now that my mom would be away for 1 month, I’ve got to do most of the house work. Like cooking, laundry, sweeping the floor while my twin enjoys herself and comes home late every night, just like what she’s doing now. I’d mostly run to my sister’s place one in while and sleep over. The only problem is that I have events that go late into the night and I go to the CC. Not sure if she’d like that. Oh well, we’ll just see what happens when the time comes.