Just because I’m not working and you don’t see me giving you money doesn’t mean I am useless…at least I don’t ask anyone for money. I work with my uncle got earn enough for me. But I still try to do my best to get a permanent job. You think I really wanna stay home. You want me to live on the streets FINE! But remember one thing DON’T REGRET what you say when it really happens.

I’m wondering how can a mother say things like. “Sending you to school is useless”, ‘You have your ‘Jantan’ (guys) to take care of you, what”, “Go stay on the streets less headache for me”. Get one thing straight. The one who has been there to get you out of the shit you put yourself into, is ME! The one who does things to make you happy is ME! The one who does the house work, the one who clean after you is ME! You did not put me through school! I did! I took the freaking loan because you didn’t want me to use MY money in the bank. I took up a freaking loan because of YOU and the one who has to pay is ME! NOT YOU! So don’t say you put me through school. As bad as my dad was he put me through school. He was the one who financial supported me when through it was a small amount. Even with that small amount I gave you more than HALF. I had to make do with what I had and never asked you for extra cash. Even if I did I PAID THEM BACK! If you really think I am useless than fine just tell me to LEAVE and I will be pleased to DO SO! Don’t have to show you anger so that I would feel bad about things. You don’t wanna talk to me FINE! That would make my life more peaceful. Being good to the family just gives me more problems. I cook, clean and clean after you people with an injured wrist, you never once asked what happened or if I went to get it checked. NEVER! I just kept silent. When I was sick you didn’t bother and when you are sick everyone has to tend to you…when you are home everyone has to be under your nose.

When I go out I don’t use your money. When I buy my things I never asked you for money. In fact sometimes when there is nothing to cook at home I buy the stuff to cook. If that is what you call useless than I don’t know what you mean by useful. Don’t worry I wouldn’t be around for very long. Once I’ve secured a stable job for myself I’M OUT! Than you are on your OWN! I’m useless so why should I even hang around….So don’t worry your headaches will decrease when I leave…