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Thursday, November 5, 2009
jealous or not jealous that is the question
Ok maybe you girls are right. Maybe I am being a little too jealous or is it that I’m insure. Whatever it is…I have no explanation for it. I just can’t help it. I guess the main reason I have is that I’m afraid. Afraid of loosing him. I try not to show it but I guess he kinda feels it. And the worse part, he and I might not be going for the overseas trip that I was looking forward to. Once reason being my mom and uncle being pain in the ass again. And second, I blew my budget this month and didn’t save for the trip. So…I’ll be stuck in Singapore haiz….is it so wrong for me to go on an overseas trip…come on I’m 23 going 24. I’m a grown women let me have my space! But NOOOOO…these people have find pleasure in making my life miserable.

I had a fight with my twin. Ya I know what else is new. I really couldn’t take it this time. She broke down my door. YES she broke down my door. And my mom took her side and said I was at fault when she didn’t even know what the hell happened. All she knows is that I hit my twin and that I’m the evil one. My uncle keeps telling me just ignore. I have been ignoring for the past 10 years. How long more do you want me to just shut up. Than again even if I do speak up I’m in the wrong again. Sometimes I feel like just packing my bag split. Just like what my brother did. But my weakness is that I cant see my family suffer. EERRR!!! Why do I have to be so nice when they treat me like shit.

Anyway work has been alright. Took leave on Wednesday to rest my leg and do my monthly grocery shopping. After which I went for acupuncture. Hehe I was like a small kid. I hate needles and I had 2 of them poke into my ankle. I thought it would hurt but it didn’t turn out as bad as I thought. I just hope after this my leg would be better…and my mom never once asked what happened to my leg. I guess I’m just a piece for cloth…when needed they use me. When not needed I’m thrown aside. Oh well, that’s life right. I hope I can hold on and not loose my head for the next ohh…3 years. After that I’m on my own…girls thank you for the moral support. I really appreciate it.

~ { 3:45 AM }
reflections of you and me;