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Saturday, February 6, 2010


Since the day you came along,
My life filled with love and joy.
But at the same time fear slowly crept in.
I am so ordinary, so plain
Yet you still choose me, why?
Things have been difficult since i said yes.
It’s not fair for you i know.
I have done and have said stupid things.
Yet you still said you loved me, why?

At times my mind runs wild.
Thinking of things I should not.
Is not that i don’t trust you, I do.
Its them out there that I do not trust.
I’m sorry if my thoughts hurt you.
I have no where to run but to you
I don’t want to keep things from you
But I’m so afraid of telling you
Afraid of what you might think
But the biggest fear I have
Is the fear of loosing you
Loosing you not to someone
But loosing to the things I do and say.

I cry because something wrong with me
I cry because I feel no one with me can console me
I cry because i am scared about loosing a relationship
I cry because my love is not with me
I cry because you could not understand why i am crying

These are just random words i have in my head now...I guess I should just let things be as it is and not make it worse. I shall just cry in silence once again so as not to hurt anyone. I’d rather hurt myself than to ever make him cry...I know someone of you might not understand this but than again who can truly understand unless you are in my shoes.

~ { 7:00 AM }
reflections of you and me;